Derek: Don't get me wrong i like the kissing. I'm all for the kissing. More kissing I say.

I don't know why I find that so funny. Maybe the way he said it. Hilarious.
From season 1 of Grey's anatomy.
Sometimes when I look back and remember that I first starting to watch Grey's Anatomy cause my mother was watching Grey's. HAHA.
Tomorrow I will be making Mango Sago Pomelo Dessert. If it turns out well I will post the recipe here.
I decided from now on I am going to start posting whatever I cook/bake here. (: I mean, why not? Anyway cooking has become quite a large part of my life anyway.
Sunday I am making pancakes for breakfast and making hand made noodles at night for dinner.
Caroline is coming on Monday and I am flying back Wednesday. WOOHOO.
<3, Rachel Lian

The little robot man says hello.
Coming back next Wednesday. Quite exciting. But then again no. There is no anticipation somehow. Like yeah I am excited to see all of you and stuff, but there is nothing BIG to look forward to you know.
I suppose the little things are good enough. (:
Like my sister. My family. My friends.
We were just talking about how like compared to the trip earlier on this year, this one is alot less, exciting.
Maybe because I have to pack EVERYTHING in my room into boxes. BLAAAAA. The boxes just arrived today .mhou,hiou bijon ol(<-- typed my dino)

OH AND IT IS FREAKING HOT NOW. So i cannot imagine how hot it will be when I go back. It's too hot, I can't function or type properly. See you soon. <3, Rachel

Sometimes I get tired of walking
Through these ordinary days
If nothing else I get to see you
Even if we never speak..
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Hosanna, Hosanna, Hosanna in the highest.
Just to say that I am still alive and the exam is coming.

It is a love hate relationship.
I suppose you could say it is like drugs, a rush for the moment and then when the temporary high is gone, you are left with nothing. Just a glimpse of vague memories. Just a faint recollection of 'happy times'.
What am I doing. And how do I stop.
No worries friends I am not having issues with drugs, cigarettes or alcohol.
I am perfectly healthy, physically and mentally.
It just seems that every time I take two stops forward, I end up taking 3 steps back.
It's like running on a treadmill at a pace not determined by you, if you don't keep up with the pace, if you don't keep running no matter how out of breath, you're going to fall.

I just stepped on the treadmill. And I have no idea what the pace is going to be. And I already feel that I am going to fall.

Don't fall. Keep running. Don't stop. Keep running. If you set your mind to it, anything is possible.

And her shirt said, I love you more than nerds love math class.
HAHAHAHHAHA. That should be in my vows next time.

Had a good shopping at chadstone today. Bought hair accessories and two sets of earrings from diva, a skirt from dotti($10 on SALE), a skirt from cotton on, 1 pair of ballet flats from cotton on, 2 shirts(for $30) from Jay Jays and a prom dress for my sister from Bardot. Best deal, $100 down to $30). Very productive day, didn't manage to get all the things I wanted, because well, if I did, the world would be significantly poorer.

Just had to get this for myself though. Online. From Alex and Chloe.
It is really cute. Partly because I have been staring at Hui Ting's Coco is dead http://www.notempire.com/images/uploads/alexChloeCocoisdead.jpg necklace for ages. Which is way cooler, but I really like the whole look of it. I wish they would do a whole range of all the top brands, I would totally buy them. So, here i present to you my Love is not Dead necklace from Alex and Chloe.

It will be delivered in 5-10 days. But I got it sent back to Singapore not Melbourne. I don't want another extra thing to bring back. Probably should tell the family to expect something soon. (:

I am going back to Singapore soon. Time really really flies. Was discussing with the loves(ting and nancy) that it will be weird when I don't see the group(ting, nancy, leon, jon, sarah) every day when we are back home. Like, I see them without fail everyday for 1-3 hours normally, or even longer on other days. I eat with them, shop with them, do assignments with them, cook with them, do laundry with them, groceries, holidays, grooming, lazing, baking...... And then when I go back to Singapore, it is going to be like, a totally different life. I will have family, mother, father, sister. Cousins. Grandparents. I will have my best friends. I will have my church friends. My old friends from tkgs, tpjc.

I think I will miss this crazy bunch that I have been getting to know over the past 10 months or so. Darn, I feel so silly.  And nancy said she is sick of seeing us so much, I'm not.

Loving without judgment isn't going to well. I, can't help myself. Less bitching Rachel. less.

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UPDATE: Got back from Brisbane on Wednesday night. But to be fair, I only reached Berwick Thursday 'morning'. And it wasn't so much as Brisbane. It was more Queensland. Went to Surfer's Paradise, Movie World, Wet and Wild....Sunshine Coast. The weather was fabulous and I had a great time. Everything was brighter, more vivid. Happier, for a few days the sun on my face and wind through my hair took my mind off the worries of the past few weeks.

I won't do a whole post documenting everywhere we went. Cause that was so secondary school. Or JC. Anyway, it was so 5000 years ago. I had fun, see the photos on facebook. Assignment due on Monday, 'the message is the medium'. Stupid McLuhan. Hate you. If not for you I would not have to write this stupid essay.

Back to my essay.
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The 20 year old is normal she says.
Normal.
It's normal to feel both happy and sad at the same time. It is normal to feel tugs in different directions.
We'll all be okay.